well hello everyone! Yes it's been quite a while...ever so sorry. Thing's have been pretty crazy and, i don't know, indescribeable I guess. To be fair, though, I did promise I wasn't gonna be updating that much anymore, but anywho...
What's new with me, you ask? Well, I went to France, and that was pretty amazing. I went twith school for a week during February break. We went to many different towns and cities, and, of course, Paris. Ah, Paris is so cool! If my French was better, and the people weren't so snotty, I'd totally live there. But everywhere else was really cool, too. Everything is so old and beautiful there. it was so depressing coming home. Everything just looks so awful after seeing France. Even the most insignificant buildings look beautiful. and everything is so OLD. We Americans tear something down or remodel it after it's been up for two minutes. I also did some shopping, so I have some really cool French clothes. I didn't wan't to leave, one week was definitely not enough. I'll certainly be going back.
Things on the college front aren't so great. I got accepted to Pace, Syracuse Univeristy, and SUNY Fredonia, which is cool. However, I got accepted to NONE of the acting programs. Yeah..Needless to say that really hurt (Actually Pace doesn't count because I missed my audition because of weather). And then I'm all but certain that I want to go to Pace, but then my mom talks to the people and they tell her it costs over $40,000 to go, and they have no tuition exchange slots left, and we can't afford that. So now it's looking like SU. OK, I know SU's a great school, but I WANT TO LEAVE SYRACUSE!
I don't want to see the same shit I've seen everyday for my whole life, I don't want to run into people from high schoole everyday, and I just don't want to be like everyone else who graduates and goes to SU. I want to be the one who goes to New York City, only visits occasionally, and when I come back I'm all glamorous and mysterious. Besides, I've always wanted to go to school in NYC. I mean, I know these are kind of dumb reasons to not want to go, but I can't help it, that's what I wanted. I don't know, all this stuff has just been like one disappointment after another. Nothing went according to plan, and that makes me sad. I feel like I haven't doubted myself so much since like 7th grade, and it sucks.
What else? Oh, I'm so ready for Summer to come! I can seriously smell it in the air. It's my absolute, no doubt about it favorite season of the year, and this is gonna be the best Summer ever. By God as my witness, I'm never gonna stay home all day. I better have so much fun. I need to let off some steam after this friggin year, and it's my last Summer before college. It just gets harder nad harder to go to schoole evryday, it's not like I even do anything in class anyway. I seriously do zero homework anymore, and you knwo what? I really don't care. What difference is it gonna make now? Ugh, the year was going by so fast until now!
SO here's some pictures from France, becaise I promised themurcurytree
. If we're friends on Myspace, chances are you've already seen most of them, but anyway:( Collapse )